when everything is wrong..

I woke up crying almost like every day since different events happen. Some days you just feel that everything is wrong, the way that the things are just doesn't seem fair. Why some people have much more than what they deserve, or for example why the kids that live in Africa die like every second, or why he have more than me, this last sentence its kind of superficial but it's true, and that is just the way i feel right now. Every thing is so mess up, i don't know how to fix it.

Today is Saturday, and when i woke up i just run from my home to the place I suppose to be, i just run and run, until i felt that it was time to stop, i felt that that was the place where my peace would be silent. The serenity, everything was calm then i discovered that that wasn't the place so i keep running, until i couldn't handle it so i cried and i started to think about the last days. Everything started on Friday but 2 weeks ago, i went to a party and i met a boy, he was cute, handsome, and everything i ever wanted, so we started to drink, and everything happen so fast that i couldn't even remember, why i was on a hotel room just with my clothes on the floor, i was 17 well i am, but its so hard.

The same day i went to my home my dad was so angry that he hit me but he wasn't angry because i slept on another place just because i refuse to buy him beer. He is my father and he suppose to act like that. He is a drug adict, and my mom left us when i was 5 years so i grow up in a ugly environment. I went upstairs and then i thought who was my mysterious guy, when i would meet him. A week after that i discovered i was pregnant.

The first thing wrong in my life was my family, then my education, now i am pregnant of a guy that i don't even know. So what is wrong with me. This thought was on my mind all the road, my father just suicide when i told him i was pregnant 5 hours before he was dead, everything was hard, i couldn't handle it , so i just saw the beach and every single thought of hurting myself was on my head, the tears were falling from my eyes to my cheeks until the floor, then i look down and i sat on the beach, the place that my run guide me to.

i looked to the sky, the beach, and i discovered that just the way we come to world alone we said good bye. every single piece of my life felt down with every single tear, my teardrops form a figure that i couldnt even distinguished, i started to walk to the sea. i was walking with nothing more that my soul, and end it with nothin more that my life...